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Jan. 30th, 2019 10:47 pmCHARACTER
Name Calvin Lee
Canon Original
Age 19
Birthright Jewel White
Dreams made flesh A cure for his father's cancer
Canon point After being run through thousands of time loops he ended up stuck in thanks to proximity to the looper, and memories of past loops start coming back to him in fuzzy bits and pieces
Canon Powers N/A
Personality On the surface Calvin is a fun guy to be around. He's kind of goofy and goobery in a way that makes it easy to laugh at his mistakes, and he'll usually laugh along with people. He doesn't seem to take himself too seriously, and while he can give his friends a hard time with acerbic comments here and there, for the most part he seems relatively kind. He's good with the elderly and little kids (having three younger siblings), and puts a good deal of effort into most of the things he does whether he's naturally good at something or not.
He really does seem like a chill, fun loving guy that will help lift the mood of a room.
But the thing is, Calvin is actually a mess of barely concealed insecurities. He hates everything about himself from his face, his body, his perceived lack of talent, and even his personality. The only thing he has going for him is an academically inclined mind, and even then Calvin is ready to undersell himself by a pretty large degree. Being insecure doesn't mean he likes to be vulnerable, however, and Calvin covers up a lot of his problems with jokes and an attempt at an easy-going attitude.
In truth he's constantly comparing himself to the people around him, and finding himself coming up short, but instead of making efforts to improve the areas of himself that he hates he allows himself to silently wallow in self-pity. He'll occasionally poke fun at his flaws, but for the most part refuses to bring them up or talk about the things about himself that he hates, which means he's happier not talking about himself in general. It means that Calvin comes across as a little less self-involved than he really is, and that just adds to the guilt over his own personality that he carries.
Calvin's way of dealing with his issues is to toss himself fully into various forms of escapism. He's an awkward guy who can sometimes put his foot in his mouth, but he's an extrovert who prefers being around people to being alone. In fact, he kind of hates being left on his own where his thoughts are allowed to take hold and drag him down. He also leans heavily on escapism from chemicals (drinking/smoking pot) to simple distractions (movies/online games) to step away from "himself" for a moment, and often allows his escapist behaviors to go too far and become unhealthy.
As much as he's ready to drag himself, Calvin isn't all bad. He might lack any confidence, be awkward and easy to push around, and be bad at letting people help, but he's pretty good at helping others. He's the oldest of four kids, and developed a strong sense of responsibility at a young age. He's dependable when you need him, and while he might not seek help for his own problems, he'll push himself out of his comfort zone if others need help.
He's especially conscious of those that are weaker or more helpless than others. Kids and the elderly get special attention from him, and in general Calvin seeks fairness in the world around him. While he might not be able to do much about injustices, he does feel them deeply in a way that leaves him frustrated with himself for not being able to solve the world's problems.
History Calvin is a pretty normal American kid who grew up in southern California. His parents immigrated to America when Calvin was still a toddler, while his mom was pregnant with his first younger brother.
In school he was considered kind of awkward and borderline uncomfortable to be around, and while he had a small handful of friends he was far from popular. That's why his plan became to go to college and reinvent himself completely the way people always seemed to manage in movies.
Only his dad, whose health had been steadily declining for awhile, was finally diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.
The news was devastating to Calvin's family, and threw a wrench into Calvin's future plans. His father was unable to work, and the expenses to take care of him as his health continued to decline began to rack up. Calvin needed to take a few part time jobs in order to help supplement his mother's income, and while he had been granted a full scholarship, he was forced to give up on his dreams of attending a university. There was no time for him to juggle both classes and work, even if his mother weakly insisted he should still go to college.
Calvin found himself in an emotionally precarious spot where he was constantly teetering on the edge of a breakdown. He'd seemingly lost his chance for the future he wanted, the few friends he had moved away to pursue their own futures, he was working jobs he honestly couldn't stand just to get by, and his father was dying. Regardless of his mother's forced optimism when talking to his siblings about the situation Calvin knew the survival rates for people with this particular form of cancer.
But Calvin's family had always been private about their problems, and without meaning to his father had taught Calvin to hold in his emotions.
So Calvin carried on with his life like he wasn't slowly falling apart on the inside. His reliance on substances became worse, and his need to not allow himself a single moment alone became overwhelming, but he managed to get through life with a seemingly cheerful disposition. It wasn't always fake either. When Calvin did a successful job of distracting himself from the crushing weight of reality he really did feel happy, but eventually the truth would always catch up to him, and when he was alone in his room at night Calvin would often breakdown. In dark moments Calvin would even allow himself to feel angry and bitter at the world for being unfair, at his friends for slowly dropping contact with him over time, and even at his own father for putting him through this. The anger would then slowly morph into another form of guilt that would lead to yet another breakdown, and an unhealthy cycle of grief that he couldn't break himself out of was established.
That wasn't the only cycle that Calvin was stuck in, however. Without realizing it, taking a part-time job at a convenience store was one of the biggest life-changing decisions he could make, because of two of the boys who worked there with him.
One, Micah, was essentially a living computer virus, a glitch in the system that was never supposed to exist. The other, Lance, was the meant to be the world's solution to glitches like Micah. The problem is both boys, despite carrying strange powers inside of them, had no idea they were anything other than regular boys. The bigger problem was that Lance grew attached to Micah, and instead of ensuring his untimely death, Lance went out of his way to try to save Micah.
In doing this, Lance created an endless set of time loops. He would live the same set of months over and over again, Micah dying in some way or another in each new loop, and time resetting from the beginning of this several month period. No matter what Lance did Micah would always die, so Lance tried hard to change things slightly each time in order to find that one magical thing that would save Micah's life.
This is where things went from bad to worse for Calvin. While he initially didn't remember the loops, just being a normal human dragged into the madness of something well beyond him, the proximity to these two boys who he had befriended ended up causing a change in him as well. After living through literally thousands of loops, Calvin began to remember things that seemed strange and dream-like. Conversations he'd had with people he could quote verbatim from both ends, events that happened gave him the strongest feeling of deja vu, and while some of this was innocuous enough, some was not.
Calvin remembered seeing his friends, Lance especially do wild and dangerous things, he remembered his own on and off involvements in a strange cult, a series of romantic entanglements he swore he never had, and most alarming of all, he remembered Lance taking a baseball bat to his head until he blacked out.
Everything felt wrong, and Calvin's sense of reality felt off. He was struggling to distinguish truth from fiction, and questioning why he had such clear memories of things he was sure couldn't have possibly happened.
SAMPLES
Network Sample A set of TFLN threads? I personally recommend the ones using number 6 as a prompt instead of number 4
Log Sample
Test drive thread(s)
PLAYER
Name Leigh
Are you 18 or older? Yes
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jhope or discord @ Leigh#4246
Current character N/A
Name Calvin Lee
Canon Original
Age 19
Birthright Jewel White
Dreams made flesh A cure for his father's cancer
Canon point After being run through thousands of time loops he ended up stuck in thanks to proximity to the looper, and memories of past loops start coming back to him in fuzzy bits and pieces
Canon Powers N/A
Personality On the surface Calvin is a fun guy to be around. He's kind of goofy and goobery in a way that makes it easy to laugh at his mistakes, and he'll usually laugh along with people. He doesn't seem to take himself too seriously, and while he can give his friends a hard time with acerbic comments here and there, for the most part he seems relatively kind. He's good with the elderly and little kids (having three younger siblings), and puts a good deal of effort into most of the things he does whether he's naturally good at something or not.
He really does seem like a chill, fun loving guy that will help lift the mood of a room.
But the thing is, Calvin is actually a mess of barely concealed insecurities. He hates everything about himself from his face, his body, his perceived lack of talent, and even his personality. The only thing he has going for him is an academically inclined mind, and even then Calvin is ready to undersell himself by a pretty large degree. Being insecure doesn't mean he likes to be vulnerable, however, and Calvin covers up a lot of his problems with jokes and an attempt at an easy-going attitude.
In truth he's constantly comparing himself to the people around him, and finding himself coming up short, but instead of making efforts to improve the areas of himself that he hates he allows himself to silently wallow in self-pity. He'll occasionally poke fun at his flaws, but for the most part refuses to bring them up or talk about the things about himself that he hates, which means he's happier not talking about himself in general. It means that Calvin comes across as a little less self-involved than he really is, and that just adds to the guilt over his own personality that he carries.
Calvin's way of dealing with his issues is to toss himself fully into various forms of escapism. He's an awkward guy who can sometimes put his foot in his mouth, but he's an extrovert who prefers being around people to being alone. In fact, he kind of hates being left on his own where his thoughts are allowed to take hold and drag him down. He also leans heavily on escapism from chemicals (drinking/smoking pot) to simple distractions (movies/online games) to step away from "himself" for a moment, and often allows his escapist behaviors to go too far and become unhealthy.
As much as he's ready to drag himself, Calvin isn't all bad. He might lack any confidence, be awkward and easy to push around, and be bad at letting people help, but he's pretty good at helping others. He's the oldest of four kids, and developed a strong sense of responsibility at a young age. He's dependable when you need him, and while he might not seek help for his own problems, he'll push himself out of his comfort zone if others need help.
He's especially conscious of those that are weaker or more helpless than others. Kids and the elderly get special attention from him, and in general Calvin seeks fairness in the world around him. While he might not be able to do much about injustices, he does feel them deeply in a way that leaves him frustrated with himself for not being able to solve the world's problems.
History Calvin is a pretty normal American kid who grew up in southern California. His parents immigrated to America when Calvin was still a toddler, while his mom was pregnant with his first younger brother.
In school he was considered kind of awkward and borderline uncomfortable to be around, and while he had a small handful of friends he was far from popular. That's why his plan became to go to college and reinvent himself completely the way people always seemed to manage in movies.
Only his dad, whose health had been steadily declining for awhile, was finally diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.
The news was devastating to Calvin's family, and threw a wrench into Calvin's future plans. His father was unable to work, and the expenses to take care of him as his health continued to decline began to rack up. Calvin needed to take a few part time jobs in order to help supplement his mother's income, and while he had been granted a full scholarship, he was forced to give up on his dreams of attending a university. There was no time for him to juggle both classes and work, even if his mother weakly insisted he should still go to college.
Calvin found himself in an emotionally precarious spot where he was constantly teetering on the edge of a breakdown. He'd seemingly lost his chance for the future he wanted, the few friends he had moved away to pursue their own futures, he was working jobs he honestly couldn't stand just to get by, and his father was dying. Regardless of his mother's forced optimism when talking to his siblings about the situation Calvin knew the survival rates for people with this particular form of cancer.
But Calvin's family had always been private about their problems, and without meaning to his father had taught Calvin to hold in his emotions.
So Calvin carried on with his life like he wasn't slowly falling apart on the inside. His reliance on substances became worse, and his need to not allow himself a single moment alone became overwhelming, but he managed to get through life with a seemingly cheerful disposition. It wasn't always fake either. When Calvin did a successful job of distracting himself from the crushing weight of reality he really did feel happy, but eventually the truth would always catch up to him, and when he was alone in his room at night Calvin would often breakdown. In dark moments Calvin would even allow himself to feel angry and bitter at the world for being unfair, at his friends for slowly dropping contact with him over time, and even at his own father for putting him through this. The anger would then slowly morph into another form of guilt that would lead to yet another breakdown, and an unhealthy cycle of grief that he couldn't break himself out of was established.
That wasn't the only cycle that Calvin was stuck in, however. Without realizing it, taking a part-time job at a convenience store was one of the biggest life-changing decisions he could make, because of two of the boys who worked there with him.
One, Micah, was essentially a living computer virus, a glitch in the system that was never supposed to exist. The other, Lance, was the meant to be the world's solution to glitches like Micah. The problem is both boys, despite carrying strange powers inside of them, had no idea they were anything other than regular boys. The bigger problem was that Lance grew attached to Micah, and instead of ensuring his untimely death, Lance went out of his way to try to save Micah.
In doing this, Lance created an endless set of time loops. He would live the same set of months over and over again, Micah dying in some way or another in each new loop, and time resetting from the beginning of this several month period. No matter what Lance did Micah would always die, so Lance tried hard to change things slightly each time in order to find that one magical thing that would save Micah's life.
This is where things went from bad to worse for Calvin. While he initially didn't remember the loops, just being a normal human dragged into the madness of something well beyond him, the proximity to these two boys who he had befriended ended up causing a change in him as well. After living through literally thousands of loops, Calvin began to remember things that seemed strange and dream-like. Conversations he'd had with people he could quote verbatim from both ends, events that happened gave him the strongest feeling of deja vu, and while some of this was innocuous enough, some was not.
Calvin remembered seeing his friends, Lance especially do wild and dangerous things, he remembered his own on and off involvements in a strange cult, a series of romantic entanglements he swore he never had, and most alarming of all, he remembered Lance taking a baseball bat to his head until he blacked out.
Everything felt wrong, and Calvin's sense of reality felt off. He was struggling to distinguish truth from fiction, and questioning why he had such clear memories of things he was sure couldn't have possibly happened.
SAMPLES
Network Sample A set of TFLN threads? I personally recommend the ones using number 6 as a prompt instead of number 4
Log Sample
Test drive thread(s)
PLAYER
Name Leigh
Are you 18 or older? Yes
Contact
Current character N/A
